1.72 – Letter to “God” 2.0

Dear “God”

I’m going to pretend for a moment that I fully believe in you and pen this letter. I don’t fall under the category of people who pray and talk to you when they want something or the people who do bad but preach your name left and right. I’m just some girl who is a bit tired of the continued push of who you are onto my plate. And if you exist, I’m sure you won’t be too highly offended since you created all and you know exactly how everything is going to turn out so…you knew I was going to write this 27 years ago. So you’ve had time to get over it.

So here’s the thing. You’re some dude in the sky, right? I mean, you’re somewhere up there…however far up that’s supposed to be. And you created the world and people messed up and boom, we’re all damned with sin. And we’ll never be good enough, no matter how hard we try and we’ll always fail you and we’re always going to be bad in comparison to your perfect son. Do you see where I’m going with this?

You kinda sound like an abusive parent. You created us. Check. You know how everything is going to turn out? Check. So you knew, from the get go that humans were gonna mess up. You knew we would never ever be able to be what you want us to be. BUT we’re supposed to try to be perfect anyways? You’re selling me some false goods here.

And if we’re all created in your image, why do you disapprove of homosexuals? I mean…wouldn’t that make you a homosexual too? And this whole image thing…you lost me on that one. Is it Jesus or you that I’m supposed to look and act like? Or are you the same person? And the holy ghost…okay so that’s three personalities…they have medications for this…WHICH YOU CREATED, BTW!

My son was born with sin. He just popped out of my vagina with sin that some person…a really long time ago did. They ate an apple. So my son is bad. Yes…that makes absolute sense in every way possible. Your followers are supposed to be loving, because..”god is love.” So why are they so hateful but call it righteousness? I mean…hate is hate. Judgement is judgement.

Why don’t your followers hate apples? Snakes? Gardens? Why are there priests who are supposed to be all superior…don’t you dislike false idols?

Heres the thing…the bible is supposed to be your book. But it was written by men. Some guys got together and wrote some stuff and said…”we know this is true because the guy in the sky said so.” Wars have been fought for the words in that book, boys have been tied to fences and left to die because of that book, hatred and genocide have happened because of that book.

Women aren’t exactly treated as equals in your book. You already created tons of enemies on that choice. Your book talks about unicorns. Unicorns.

“Psalms 22:21 Save me from the lion’s mouth: for thou hast heard me from the horns of the unicorns.”
Isaiah 34:7 And the unicorns shall come down with them, and the bullocks with the bulls; and their land shall be soaked with blood, and their dust made fat with fatness.

Ask any of your followers if unicorns have ever been a real creature. You know what answer you’ll get from your people? NO! Unicorns are from fairy tales. But isn’t the entire religious spectrum a fairy tale; something meant to give hope and drive to a species of beings so they can sleep at night? Why does this fairy tale cause so much turmoil?

Stem cell research is bad…you created the science. If you didn’t want gay men, you shouldn’t have created assholes. If you didn’t want lesbians, you should have made vagina’s like magnets that push away when the same sides are forced together. If we are all the same, why are we a million shades of one color? Why not make it simple and make us all one single shade?

“Your body is your temple and you aren’t supposed to desecrate it…” something like that…what’s the difference in a woman having her ears pierced and me having my face pierced? My temple is kinda boring. I mean…my temple is like my home right? Are we expected to not adorn the walls of our homes with art and pictures and decor because it’s taking away from the structure itself? Why create mentally handicapped people and then have them be stigmatized as “less.” The majority are smarter than the masses of “normal” people I’ve met.

Cancer sucks! FIX IT! AIDS sucks! FIX IT! MS sucks! FIX IT! Cerebral Palsy Sucks! FIX IT! Pulmonary Embolisms suck!!! FIX IT! Children starving while your churches get bigger and better with their flat screens and abundant services sucks! FIX IT!

Where was Jesus for 33 years? I’m just saying…that’s a little odd. I mean…the guy is born and then POOF…disappears…then he comes back and makes miracles. Water into wine isn’t a miracle. It’s slight of hand. A magician can turn water into wine. Negate child abuse. THATS a miracle.

You get all this praise for creating the world. For saving people. Who have you saved? There are people who touch children for fun. SAVE THEM! You don’t get any blame for how much things suck. Thats all our fault. Scapegoat anyone?

Divorce is a sin to you and your people but the wrong doings within that sanctity are null and void because thats just how you roll. Women are less because of your teachings. How exactly am I in your image if what you have shown as perfection is white, Christian and male? I am none of those things. Your son is a Shepherd…and your people are sheep. That is not something to be proud of.

I’m all for people needing something to believe in, whatever makes this experience easier to get through…I say go for it. BUT I’m completely against ever being made to feel like I’m broken because I don’t believe in something that quite frankly sounds like a fairy tale that has gone completely out of control.

Don’t get me wrong, I believe in something. I do. But believing in a kingdom in the sky in which I’m going to wear a crown of jewels and frolic around with angels and just be in absolute awe of some guy who created this IF I follow a book…I believe in that as much as I believe I’m going to get 70 virgins if I crash a plane into a building. I don’t.

Having faith is…well…stupid. I can have faith in unicorns. I’ve never seen one for real. Doesn’t mean my faith is going to make their exisence true.

You have people like The Westboro Baptist Church that follows your book to the extremes. A lot of people hate them. But you let them continue to spew hate on your behalf while gifting children with debilitating diseases. You have murderers who are “born again,” and are convinced their going to your magical getaway despite slaughtering innocents. Funny how forgiveness works. All is swept away if we beg for your forgiveness.

Well, here’s something. Feel free to ask for my forgiveness. For the trials and tribulations, the unjust deaths and destruction, the agony and oblivion you have so blessed people with. Ask the millions of people you have unjustly inflicted with illness and sorrow. Ask forgiveness of those taunted and brutalized by your devoted followers. You know what my answer is…you are NOT forgiven. I don’t forgive those who willingly seek revenge but expect devotion. I don’t forgive the spineless who hide behind rules and regulations embedded in contradiction. I dont forgive parents who neglect, abuse and torment their children,  only to resurface as a testament when that child beats the odds but is nowhere to be found at the funeral of the ones who couldnt.

Some people might assume that I do believe in you but I’m just angry at your ways. To those people, I’ll just say, go pray about it.

So, in closing…if you do exist, you might want to clear up some of the misunderstandings…maybe make a few corrections. Oh, and good job on flowers, rain and hamsters. I like those.


11 comments on “1.72 – Letter to “God” 2.0

    • Thank you for the invite. Despite my desire to make an income off of my writing, I would prefer to use an outlet that does not require/expect a membership payment in order for me to earn an income. It’s like paying my boss to let me go to work every day. Not my dig. Nonetheless, thank you for the offer and comment.

  1. Read your blog and I can understand your frustrations but I believe you might have made some assumptions based on what the world or men in religion have taught you. And as for your temple being boring and needing to decorate the walls of your temple, I disagree. God made His creations beautiful but the world and religious leaders have sought to interpret what God sees as beautiful. He has made spiritual women the epitome of beauty in His creation but the religious world has done a terrible job of manifesting His love for His creation, particularly woman. Hope you would visit my blog and maybe see if another look might be an answer to your prayer. I appreciate your honesty though. It helps me as I write a book about
    the true definition of intimacy between men and women. Religious men and women may throw stones after I publish, but I believe the message of what God defines as intimacy needs to be spoken. See for yourself.

    • I appreciate your comment. My statement about my temple comes from a place where people choose to label me and accuse me of degrading my body because I have a facial piercing and tattoos. I’ve seen many a religious woman with earrings in their ears so this is just a hypocritical statement to me. If my piercings and tattoos are bad then so would an ear piercing. I may not have had good introductions and experiences with religious people and situations. I find that people want to save me, so is the way of living in the bible belt. But I think there is a time when I have the right to say, I don’t wish to be saved, and to respectfully be left alone. I look forward to looking at your work though, as I attempt to keep an opened mind for the future.

  2. ‘Let me explain the problem science has with Jesus Christ.’ The atheist professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his new students to stand.
    ‘You’re a Christian, aren’t you, son?’
    ‘Yes sir,’ the student says.
    ‘So you believe in God?’
    ‘Is God good?’
    ‘Sure! God’s good.’
    ‘Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?’
    ‘Are you good or evil?’
    ‘The Bible says I’m evil.’
    The professor grins knowingly. ‘Aha! The Bible!’ He considers for a moment.
    ‘Here’s one for you. Let’s say there’s a sick person over here and you can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?’
    ‘Yes sir, I would.’
    ‘So you’re good…!’
    ‘I wouldn’t say that.’
    ‘But why not say that? You’d help a sick and maimed person if you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn’t.’
    The student does not answer, so the professor continues. ‘He doesn’t, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even though he prayed to Jesus to heal him How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can you answer that one?’
    The student remains silent.
    ‘No, you can’t, can you?’ the professor says. He takes a sip of water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.
    ‘Let’s start again, young fella Is God good?’
    ‘Er…yes,’ the student says.
    ‘Is Satan good?’
    The student doesn’t hesitate on this one. ‘No.’
    ‘Then where does Satan come from?’>
    The student : ‘From…God…’
    ‘That’s right. God made Satan, didn’t he? Tell me, son. Is there evil in this world?’
    ‘Yes, sir.’
    ‘Evil’s everywhere, isn’t it? And God did make everything, correct?’
    ‘So who created evil?’ The professor continued, ‘If God created everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to the principle that our works define who we are, then God is evil.’
    Without allowing the student to answer, the professor continues: ‘Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things, do they exist in this world?’
    The student: ‘Yes.’
    ‘So who created them?’
    The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his question. ‘Who created them? There is still no answer. Suddenly the le cturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is mesmerized.
    ‘Tell me,’ he continues onto another student. ‘Do you believe in Jesus Christ, son?’
    The student’s voice is confident: ‘Yes, professor, I do.’
    The old man stops pacing. ‘Science says you have five senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen Jesus?’
    ‘No sir. I’ve never seen Him’
    ‘Then tell us if you’ve ever heard your Jesus?’
    ‘No, sir, I have not.’
    ‘Have you ever actually felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or smelt your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus Christ, or God for that matter?’
    ‘No, sir, I’m afraid I haven’t.’
    ‘Yet you still believe in him?’
    ‘According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your God doesn’t exist. What do you say to that, son?’
    ‘Nothing,’ the student replies. ‘I only have my faith.’
    ‘Yes, faith,’ the professor repeats. ‘And that is the problem science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith.’
    The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a question of his own. ‘Professor, is there such thing as heat?’
    ‘Yes,’ the professor replies. ‘There’s heat.’
    ‘And is there such a thing as cold?’
    ‘Yes, son, there’s cold too.’
    ‘No sir, there isn’t.’
    The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested. The room suddenly becomes very quiet. The student begins to explain.
    ‘You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat, mega-heat, unlimited heat, white h eat, a little heat or no heat, but we don’t have anything called ‘cold’. We can hit up to 458 degrees below zero, which is no heat, but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold; otherwise we would be able to go colder than the lowest -458 degrees. Every body or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-458 F) is the total absence of heat. You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.’
    Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom, sounding like a hammer.
    ‘What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as darkness?’
    ‘Yes,’ the professor replies without hesitation. ‘What is night if it isn’t darkness?’
    ‘You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light, but if you have no light constantly you have nothing and it’s called darkness, isn’t it? That’s the meaning we use to define the word. In reality, darkness isn’t. If it were, you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you?’
    The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him. This will be a good semester. ‘So what point are you making, young man?’
    ‘Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is flawed to start with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed.’
    The professor’s face cannot hide his surprise this time. ‘Flawed? Can you explain how?’
    ‘You are working on the premise of duality,’ the student explains. ‘You argue that there is life and then there’s deat h; a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can’t even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it.’
    ‘Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?’
    ‘If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young man, yes, of course I do’
    ‘Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?’
    The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he realizes where the argument is going. A very good semester, indeed.
    ‘Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavour, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a preacher?’
    The class is in uproar. The student remains silent until the commotion has subsided.
    ‘To continue the point you were making earlier to the other student, let me give you an example of what I mean.’
    The student looks around the room. ‘Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the professor’s brain?’ The class breaks out into laughter.
    ‘Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor’s brain, felt the professor’s brain, touched or smelled the professor’s brain? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, with all due respect, sir. So if science says you have no brain, how can we trust your lectures, sir?’
    Now the room is silent. The professor just stares at the student, his face unreadable.
    Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers. ‘I guess you’ll have to take them on faith.’
    ‘Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact, faith exists with life,’ the student continues. ‘Now, sir, is there such a thing as evil?’
    Now uncertain, the professor responds, ‘Of course, there is. We see it everyday. It is in the daily example of man’s inhumanity to man. It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world. These manifestations are nothing else but evil.’
    To this the student replied, ‘Evil does not exist sir, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God.
    God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God’s love present in his heart. It’s like the cold that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there is no light.’
    The professor sat down.

    • An interesting reply. I see the message it conveys and it works well. However, I do not put my “faith” or belief system in science. I do not claim to know the answer to any of the questions presented in this piece or any of the existential philosophical questions that stand at the root of human existence. Is there a chance that a god exists, yes. Do I believe it is the image that has been painted for me and so many others, not one bit. I have lived in the church and attempted with all my might to understand its teachings. I tried both Catholicism and Lutheran walks. People of faith, I say more power to them. But I stand against anything that relies on faith as the final answer. Perhaps the bitter taste in my mouth comes from extremists and people who use their faith to convey messages of judgement and hate toward the minority. I appreciate the comments and the insight.

  3. O – skylah1053!
    I agree with bkolisha!

    People have really drawn too many crappy pictures of Jesus/God so the world thinks Gods crap and im so sorry that churches and people – even myself sometimes – portray Jesus wrong :(…

    Anyway – I DO want to say that im glad you were bold enough to tell God your true feelings.

    I think that a lot of people dont just be honest with him or others how they feel!

    I think God wants us to be honest.
    so – this was really great of you!

    • In part, yes. Some of my feelings come from peoples teachings. That of the church, of priests, deacons, pastors and elders. Part has come from the actual readings of the bible. The book is highly contradictory. That book is a long list of rules and regulations, stories, which instill fear and self-loathing. To follow a vengeful, angry god who will love me only if I devote my life to a standard that is impossible to meet? No thank you. I live a clean life, I work hard, I don’t partake in illegal endeavors, I devote my life to making a stable, happy environment for my son. These are the things worth living for, for me, not some entity I am supposed to get approval from. I appreciate your comment and lack of judgement. I am just one spec in the grand scheme of things. As those who follow a god follow the faith they feel in their heart…I follow the feeling in my heart, which tells me to steer clear.

  4. Awww…up until now I believed in the invisible pink unicorn. I was going to order the t-shirt and everything. Why did you have to go and tell me they don’t exist? In seriousness, though, thank you. I realize there are those who won’t agree with this and who will try to change your mind, but it is nice to see someone else say all of the things that I’ve been thinking. I do not have an issue with those who are religious, so long as they don’t use their religious doctrine as an excuse to harm, hurt, or control others whose actions are innocent, but I could never again subscribe to the religion of my childhood. It is ironic, perhaps, that I rejected Christianity as a force in my life because it failed to follow or uphold the doctrines I was taught it represented. If others can reconcile that conflict in another way, or remain oblivious to the conflict and be “good” people, I’m happy for them, but I’ve made my choice unless someone comes up with some very excellent reasons to sway me back the other direction.

    • Threads, I appreciate your comment. Honestly, I appreciate all comments on both ends of the spectrum. I find that there are people who tend to want to change my viewpoint, which is not uncommon. I dont expect to sway anyone in their faith. My objective is not to convert people to not believing. This is just my expression of where I stand. People will continue to be compelled to give me a different view point, to “open my eyes” to the truth of their faith. At the end of the day, I live my truth. I follow my heart and mind in the way that people follow their faith. I choose to address things in a certain way…an extremist of the ridiculousness. Unicorns? I mean when I heard there were unicorns…that didnt make me say “there is no god, this is a story,” but it made me say…”how, if I do believe, can I pick and choose what is true? Unicorns are fairy tales. I don’t follow fairy tales so why follow this because the masses do so?

  5. Every time I come home with a new tattoo my says no more you’re messing your body up. I don’t really say much except mom you smoke, that’s way more damaging than me putting 20 tattoos on my body. You sound like me in this blog, everything you mentioned I’ve thought and or felt. Good post.

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